A New Beginning
My sister and I, from as far back as I can remember, we were making plans, writing lists, imagining our future accomplishments together. Always together. We even had our first apartment decor planned out by the time we were about ten. (It was going to be a "groove pad", complete with shag carpet and a disco ball. Never happened. I always regretted that.) As married adults we frequently spoke over the phone about projects and plans that we wanted to do together. We had lots of different ideas, so for short we just referred to it as "taking over the world". But things got in the way. As "things" will often do in life. And we never reached our goal of world domination. I thought we would someday, I really did. I could't ever express to you the immeasurable, unfathomable shock that her death was to me.
I can't remember what I was saying.
Oh yes, the dreams, the plans. I'm gonna go ahead and do them anyway. I've been thinking about it, and working on it for a couple of months now, and I've recruited my mom to help me, because, basically she's the only one I trust to do things correctly. ;O) And it's gonna be pretty good guys. I think you're gonna like it.
Can I be honest? 2014 wasn't a good year for me. Even before my sister died. It was quite a doozy, and it really put me through the emotional wringer. I usually try to be pretty optimistic about things, but last year was just. not. good. But instead of being bitter, or overcome with grief, I'm going to be thankful. I'm thankful for the million blessings that God gave me, even though he took a few away as well. And I'm just thankful that I know Him. In the end, that's just enough. It's enough for me to be happy, it's enough for me to be peaceful. So, thank you, God, for 2014.
And thank you for 2015, as well. Which I am going to rock so hard it will kind of blow people's minds. :O)
Thanks for listening, guys. And see you soon!
Love you,
Disney
All the best for your 2015 plans dear..
ReplyDeleteDisney, I can't wait to hear how you are going to take over the world :-) Happy New Year and I pray that 2015 will be a much better year for you and your family.
ReplyDeleteCan't wait to follow along. Happy New Year!
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing woman, Disney.
ReplyDeleteI love all your posts. The beginning of 2014 was really rough on me too, but it got better and 2015 is looking really good. I am sure you will dominate the world this year!
ReplyDeleteAlways love your posts! Good luck dear blog friend!
ReplyDeleteSecrets for taking over the world ... I love it!
ReplyDeletePrayers for a better year.
Love to you! Your 2014 was 'off script'. Our year was 2013. Besides 'soaking' yourself in the comfort of the Bible, the book 'off script' by Cary Schmidt was a great help in reminding us God's knows exactly what He intends to do in helping us become more like Christ. A long warm hug to you and your family
ReplyDeletelove ya Disney, looking forward to your world Domination!
ReplyDeleteI hope 2015 brings you nothing but good things. Love this idea, and looking forward to following along! Were you a Pinky and the Brain fan? "What are we going to do tonight, Brain?" "Same thing we do every night, Pinky - TRY TO TAKE OVER THE WORLD!" :)
ReplyDeleteThis made me tear up - both happy and sad tears! My 2014 had some serious highs and some memorable lows. I am so glad I recently found your blog. Take care!
ReplyDeleteI'm so happy to hear you have plans :). Last year wasn't good for me either. Here's to new beginnings!
ReplyDeleteYou will do this. :)
ReplyDeleteI can't wait!!!
ReplyDeleteSounds exciting and empowering and I am looking forward to being blown away!
ReplyDeleteooh can I join you on the world domination thing, I have loads of ideas lol! You are awesome and will definitely own 2015. Can't wait to see your adventures.
ReplyDeleteIs it totally nerdy that Counting Crows' "Long December" is running through my head right now? "It's been a long December, and there's reason to believe maybe this year will be better than the last." Rock it. ;)
ReplyDeleteMy heart aches for you. So sorry you lost your sister.
ReplyDeleteI hope this year you can cross off some of your combined goals for the both of you:)
If you do succeed in world domination, can you improve the health care system?
Love to you.
We love you Disney! and I can't wait to see how you take over the world in 2015! Prayin for ya! :)
ReplyDeleteKristy
2014 sucked. But you don't. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for the loss of your dear sister! I know there will forever be a part of you that is empty. I can't imagine losing my sister. You are so strong and a real trooper to deal with all that happened in 2014! 2014 wasn't a good year really for me either, but I hope 2015 is a lot better for both of us. God's grace is sufficient enough for us no matter what we are going through (2 Corinthians 12:9-10)!!! We can get through any trial of struggle with His strength alone. Hoping 2015 is a year of healing and dreaming!
ReplyDeleteLove and prayers!
The thing is our brains know that the bible states all that is states. I think the trouble is having the strength to get out of bed when you wake each day and realize all over again the pain and loss. So dear lady loo.... you have already proven your strength because you are up and your brain knows the rest. So let your brain carry your heart for a bit. It will feel like auto pilot... but someday sometime and somewhere you will feel a teensy bit better and then a little better sometime someday and somewhere after that... until you feel like a different but healthy you again. ~Angela
ReplyDeleteI will be cheering you on all the way! Go, 2015!
ReplyDeleteYou rock it girl! The Lord bless your path! Xoxo
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear about your sisters passing. I hope you and your family are finding comfort in God. Will be sending a prayer for you.
ReplyDeleteI checked out a sewing book at the library, Selfish sewing (if Im correct), and while browsing it I saw a skirt that "looked like Disney" lo and behold....
one step closer to taking over the world - congrats!
xo
Hope 2015 shines!
Hugs!
ReplyDeleteYou are an inspiration in a million ways.
And I know your sister will be cheering you on from heaven. I haven't stopped by for a long time as I thought you quit blogging. I'm glad you didn't. I lost my brother at 20 and it was so hard.
ReplyDeleteYour post (this post) is well said/ well written. It is very positive and inspiring. Thanks for your honesty. May the Lord comfort you and bless your endeavors to have closure and healing by accomplishing the items on your bucket list of things that you had wanted to do with your sister. May it be therapeutic for you as you honor her in this quest. God bless you. :)
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